live like theres no tomorrow!

I miss the way you used to help me through everything. I miss your stupid jokes that made me smile. I miss your texts that would always make me smile no matter what. I miss the way you hugged me&wouldnt put me down until I couldnt breathe. I miss the way you tickled me&i started screaming cause i couldnt breathe cause I was laughing so hard. I miss the way you used to come to my house and comfort me no matter what time of day it was. I miss the way you always knew when something was wrong even if I said I was fine. I miss the old you&i want you back.

But it never is. My phone hasnt rang&it has been you since July 4th when you wished me a happy fourth of july.  Thats when we were still best friends, partners in crime, all for one and one for all, best friends since we were 4 years old&inseparable since. Even though we went to 2 different school we still remained best of friends. Until you stopped answering my text, until u didn’t want to hang out with me anymore, until you broke my heart saying we shouldn’t talk anymore because we dont want it to be hard when I move away. But thts the whole point we will be away from each other&we will still make it work cause we are best friends. We have made it work for the past 12 yrs havent we? 

I hate how u shut me out of ur life for your own selfish reasons. I think its harder not tlking to each other when we can&hanging with each other when we still can but u just want to shut me out of ur life. I just wished you knew how much i missed you! ugh please answer my texts. I hate living my life with out you in it. I wish you felt the same way.

I’m so tired. I’m sick of all the drama. People criticizing me for not being perfect. I understand I’m not perfect you don’t need to pick it out. I’m so stressed going so far away from my friends. I didn’t think I was gonna be stressed but the days are getting closer to the day I’m going away&i’m scared. I’m sick of everyone starting shit with people over the stupidest things. Cant we all just be friends! I just need someone to be there for me&hug me&make everything feel better. I’m tired of my friends.family.drama.stress.everything. I just want to go to bed&make everything go to away.